"At three o'clock, Jesus groaned out of the depths, crying loudly, 'Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthan?' which means, 'My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?'" Mark 15:34 The Message
Have you ever experienced that? The feeling that your God has abandoned you? That you and He are millions of miles apart? That for some reason, He has turned His back and deserted you?
I think we have all experienced those times. While they are valid personally to us, in reality to God, they are not. The reason that they are not, is because your Heavenly Father would not ever abandon you. He may have you go through some trials to help you grow in your walk--to teach you whatever the life lesson is that you need to learn--but He would NOT ever leave you.
Sometimes too, we can cause our own separation, our own sense of abandonment. How? By having unconfessed sin in our lives. Or by living a life that you spiritually know is wrong, but you somehow justify it. While on the surface, your life seems OK with it, deep under the surface, your spirit is dying. It's suffocating. The life is slowly being drained from it. A spiritual relationship with your Heavenly Father cannot survive when you on purpose, live a lie.
When did Jesus cry out the above passage? He did it as He hung on the cross and all of a sudden, the weight of all our sins settled on Him. Not so much physically, but spiritually. At that moment, a Son who was and always had been--at one with His Father, suddenly was torn apart. It wasn't His sin. No it was ours--yours.
Knowing that, how can anyone say that as long as this sin isn't hurting someone, it's not a sin? Your sin killed someone--not only your Lord and Savior--but it is killing you spiritually.
Please know sometimes that separation, abandoned, ignored feeling comes upon you for all sorts of different reasons. But never blame your Father. You need to pray about what He wants you to do. Pray that He shows you what is the matter and how to resolve it. And then do it!
You are so valuable to your Heavenly Father--His family would not be complete without you.
"As you come to Him, the living Stone--rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to Him--you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house..." 1 Peter 2:4-5 NIV