“O God my rock,” I cry,
“Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief,
oppressed by my enemies?” Psalm 42:9 NLT
Can you relate to David's cry to His God? A cry that came from the depths of his soul. A cry that could very well be yours. Or do you feel--like so many of us--that it is wrong to be so brutefully honest with your Father? That we are not to tell Him when we feel that He has forgotten us. That we are scared or confused or feel abandoned.
David, a man after God's own heart, felt these feeling. And he loved and trusted his Heavenly Father enough to be truthful with Him. God knows we have these feelings. He understands. He wants to hear them. It's through experiencing those feeling, telling Him about them and seeing His response--this is what builds trust in your relationship.
God never said that your walk with Him would always be full of roses and butterflies. What He did promise is that He would always be with you--that you would never be alone. All He wants is honesty. Honesty with the good feelings and the bad. As long as you are respectful with the bad, you are OK.
As you may have experienced, it is through these testing times that your relationship with your Heavenly Father grows the strongest. Just don't try to fake Him out by saying everything is OK when it isn't and don't guilt yourself into telling yourself that you can't be honest with your feelings to Him because He will punish you more. Your Heavenly Father is NOT that kind of father.
So, please, be honest. Tell your Heavenly Father everything that you are feeling--don't you realize He knows it anyway? If He knows every hair on your head and was there when you were knitted in your mother's womb--believe me--He knows.
Go ahead, trust Him. Tell Him. And then, also very important--stop and listen. Truly listen for the comfort, wisdom and answers that He will share with your spirit to share with you. They will come. And praise Him for them. Now the circle is complete.